I can start by saying how proud I am to give birth to a beautiful baby girl! Sidney Jean Victoria Eshpeter. Born Feb. 7, 2009 @ 8:31 am at the Rocky View Hospital.
She is 3 weeks old today and life is again at the stage where it seems like control is nowhere to be found. Dont get me wrong, I am grateful to have her and even more grateful that she is finally out as I had a much harder pregnancy this time around.
I bled at 32 weeks and it hasn't been easy after that.
The Delivery (this is for me to remember)
It started at 4:00 am when I felt like something kicked me from the inside...like little feet and I felt a little 'pop'. All of a sudden a strong cramping followed after that and I pretty much got Mark to help me up and I ran into the bathroom as I felt like I had to go take a dump right away!!! but nothing came out. I guess that feeling was that baby is almost ready to come out. I called my best friend Angele who is 5 minutes away from us and told her to come over right away. My contractions were 2 minutes apart and it seemed like I was dreaming because I was expecting 5 minutes apart...not 2! anyway, the feeling of taking a dump was still strong every time the contractions came...and I remember trying not to sit on the car seat while Mark drove to the hospital...we got there at 4:30 am and found that the nurse to be helping us was his client, Nikki. (She was totally amazing and helped me through the whole ordeal). She checked how far along I was and I was already at 6 cm dilated! I managed to go through a few more contractions for 1/2 hour until I couldn't stand it any longer and asked for the epidural. The doctor comes in and tells me, 'No, you're not getting one' and I pretty much thought I was going to die. Luckily the guy that was giving the epidural made it just in time and all I kept on thinking was 'shut up and quit asking me questions and just stick that needle in my back already!' I remember the feeling of the epidural when he finally got the needle in though...it felt like 1000 razor blades just cutting your back. I shrieked in pain and grabbed on to Mark for life! I guess when they do put the epidural in when you are in between contractions, you are more bound to feel the sting of it. The delivery only lasted for 4 hours and at 8:31 am she was already born! I was so happy that we have a baby girl! I knew life will never be the same after this and it's been just that!
After the Delivery
The word that came out of my mouth to describe what I was feeling was 'brutalized'. They brought us to the other side of the hospital and I ended up rooming with another Mom who was sick and didn't really care about anybody else except herself. I was looking forward to going home with my baby the next day. The first week was tough but Mark and I were glad to have my best friend Angele who was the one that helped us survive the first week. I would also like to thank the 'Chen' family who made us soup that would help me heal and get better. And to the 'Topps' for phoning and offering to drop off dinner one night for us, thank you guys! Mark and I truly appreciate you!
Our second week was pretty much the same as the first but I was lucky enough to have my sister come over all the way from Edmonton to help me get through the second week. Sister thank you for your support and for everything! You have no idea how much I appreciate everything that you do for me.
And this week, my Lola from Drayton Valley came to help us out! what an amazing Grandma! She was non-stop, round the clock with washing our mountain of a laundry, she cooked supper and cleaned up after our mess! Not bad for a 76 year old Lola! We love you Lola! Thank you for everything!
People say 'Just get through the first month' and with one more week to go before Sidney turns 1 month, I am hoping that life will get easier....and I'm sure it will :)
With that in mind, I am off to bed! I promise to post more pics in my next blog.
stay tuned!
Krissy
